Straight Edge.

I'm a little bitter about the subject. I'm not bitter with ideals of Straight Edge, but with the individuals who represent it. The ones who are so militant about it that they make fun of people who do drugs. The people who would beat the shit out of you, simply because you disagree with them. People who think they are so mighty, so strong. Why do so many of them drop like mindless fools? (Why can't they handle something so positive?)

It's one thing to believe in something, another to actually stick with it. Why shouldn't I be pissed? So many people I know keep falling. Why should I make new friends, when I can't trust any one of them to stay true. So what if people don't fucking care. I do care, and that's the problem. I care too much.

My problem is the constant let down. Who drives the Straight Edge when all its "leaders" are gone? Are they the bitter people like myself who shut everyone out? I've known the answer for too long. My belief in the Straight Edge lifestyle hardens every time someone falls. Every time I'm let down.

Here is my conclusion; If you approach me at a show, or an email and claim to be Straight Edge, then you better well stick behind it. No more games.

I've learned to not expect anything, from anyone.

Update 01/13/00

About a year ago, I was told of someone who read my article on SXE and was pretty upset about it. He mentioned that I didn't give SXE kids a chance. He actually got quite angry with me and said that my views were fucked up. (In my article regarding SXE kids who claim the X and a drug free lifestyle, usually drop out within the first year of being SXE.) This kid said he wouldn't fall from the edge. A few months later I found out that he stopped being SXE because it was too hard for him with peer pressure from everyone. Yet again, I'm laughing at those fools who can't handle a easy thing called, Straight Edge. I'm still a Bitter Old Man Straight Edge. Have a nice day.